though the clarity is vague, I will figure this out

well, hello people. soo first thing first. work was great yesterdayy. reached home at 3.30am just now. just woke up though. belom mandi. heh.

yes. life's been pretty hectic and all. both at home and school. kayy AND work. my dad's in hospital just so you know. and here i am, busy with school and work and still can blog somemore. sibeysuang. haha. see the irony in life. it gives something to you while tacking back another. i know he didnt want to burden me with all his problems and all. but you see, im not there for him when i should be. well im visiting him later at TTSH. that shouldnt be a problem. okayy, my commitment to everything else is taking its little toll on me. and THAT makes me feel like shit. im not one to complain. i know my friends sees me as someone who cant take things seriously. a real life practical joker who dont gives a shit in life. well being the one to make people laugh is always what i wanted to do. i dont feel the need of being serious. it is so full of thoughts and tension, when you're being serious that is. easily said, im not myself uh when that happens. i dont think like thinking alot. but but, dont mistook me completely. i do take things seriously, but the way i handle them is something different. well. i cant explain. haha. im a SLACKER with a LIFE. i dont take things for granted. i appreciate everything in my life. even all the small things. i think thats what makes me todayy. i dont complain. learning to appreciate things in life will teach you that complaining wont help. i dont hate. life's too short for hate. i dont force. why force? nobody should be acting against their own will. these are the things that makes me Khus. yes, isnt this good attributes. im still single you know. haha. i know i have MANY commitments in life. kayy let me name them all. theres school, soccer, band, work, and and i wanna move into acting soon. heh. many? i know. but you know what. ill have time for all of them. ill FIND the time for all of them. i wont know how i'll fair when theres a relationship in one of them. just need that someone to understand. wouldnt it be great to have that certain someone being a great friend to myself with just a lil bit bonus of being lil bit much closer rather than a normal friend. just so you know, to me, time must not be a problem to all things, activities you love.

kayy this is suppose to be a serious and an emotionall post you know. i donch know what happened. you see. im not good at being serious anymore. like 'joker' always say "why soo seriousss".