Diary

2009-10-07T14:16:00.002+08:00

hey people. ive made a decision not to blogg anhymore. its getting much muhc much boring for me. most prob ill be back online with a profile page with and online portfolio showing all my works. one thing for sure i wont be deleting this blogg. heh. i still love this. heh. bye people.

2009-09-19T06:43:00.003+08:00

sooooo, thursday, my off day, sha and i went to Seoul Garden for dinner.! heeeeeeee. and and and and, we watched Inglourious Basterds and 9 too.! heeeeeeeeeee.

heh. i love quentin tarantinos movies. but i think i still like kill bill better. heh.

and so what if youre crazy, i dont care coz' you amaze me.

2009-09-18T01:31:00.007+08:00

MUSE The Resistance

OMG gonna get me MUSE new Album.!

my all time favourite Muse live performance.

2009-09-15T05:43:00.002+08:00

i feel inferior. i feel small. i feel like anyone can bring me down anytime anywhere. i need some confidence boost right now.

2009-09-14T05:08:00.002+08:00

i think work has finally got on to me. im pretty mentally and physical tired right now.

the last thing that i ever wanted right now is you being mad at me. im sorry.

2009-09-12T07:43:00.002+08:00

soo, heres the story, im working night shifts till the morning hours everyday till wednesday consecutively. then theres my off on thursday which i have already myself booked with sha.!, and will start back working again for the weekends. not on sunday of course. theres hari raya that i have to celebrate of course. so yeah, maybe my schedules a lil bit more calm down on the raya week maybe maybe. maybe only. then i guess its gonna get hectic back after that. well no time to complain. its all for the better i guess. for the better. bye now. gotta get back to fucking sleep, cause i fucking need it right now. bye beautiful people.

live life to the fullest. stop the stereotypical nonsense. the first thing that studying in design have taught you. everything doesnt has and must to be your way.

2009-09-11T16:09:00.003+08:00

noone in this planet knows what You and I've been though

2009-09-11T15:12:00.003+08:00

freedom is the oxygen of the soul - moshe dayan

freedom and choice are what everybody has. noone should be force against their own free will. noone either shall force anyone else against their own free will.

2009-09-05T16:07:00.002+08:00

damn, i miss my long hair.

huahahahahhahahahahahahahahhahahaha. and i miss you.!

2009-09-02T16:02:00.001+08:00

2009-08-25T14:12:00.002+08:00

nothing feels real anymore

im not wating my time anymore

to show you how i feel

to show you who i am

sooo, heres the highlight of my life at the moment. im working a whole lot more this holidays. sha has started working too. we both have really busy schedules right now. i failed my studio and i ahve to come back on monday to give a brand new sets of pboards. and hell yeahh, thats it. ouh ya, its already the fasting month already. heh. so i gotta feeling that our holidays this time round gonna be a breeze. hehe. tata.! getting ready for work already.

its higher ground, lets make a stand

2009-08-23T04:22:00.003+08:00

You loved it when my heart dropped, you paused, stopped, and walked away
Full of content that it went your way

These cuts that I've caused are never too deep to heal
Peel back the bandage, see a scar from countless careless things

And feel yourself drifting, pulled away

Well nothing feels real anymore
I'm not taking my time anymore
To show you how I feel
To show you who I am
Cause it's locked away

We all need to find our way
Cut the loss, just walk away

Now head towards the light, the dark has no place here
Now head towards the light, the dark has no place here

Well nothing feels real anymore
I'm not taking my time anymore
To show you how I feel
To show you who I am
Cause it's locked away

The things we think about at night never lose taste
Now, take the close to find something greater
This wall has finally reached it's end
It's higher ground, lets make a stand
Did you ever think we would get this high?
Pull back the sheets to find the ending that you prayed for.

Now head towards the light, the dark has no place here

2009-08-18T17:58:00.003+08:00

District 9 is the bomb. one of the few movies that have made it in my awesome favourite movies list.

heh, wanna see out my list.?

- Watchmen

- District 9
- V for Vendetta
- Dark Knight

- Sin city

- Lord of the Rings

heh, theres many more, but not my most favourite though.

happy 25th birthday bro.!

brought him this. heh. hope that we could actually set up a huge toy collection at home.

2009-08-16T15:37:00.002+08:00

"We gg to rock the world till the very end together ok."

-love

2009-08-11T09:53:00.001+08:00

heh, bro got me this this morning.!

hehehehhehehehehe.

Let Faith Take Flight

2009-08-10T00:03:00.002+08:00

happy 19th birthday khus.

and thank you.

2009-08-06T21:02:00.002+08:00

hello friends. first thing first. things been pretty intense up since very long between us friends. do get this clear. i am not leaving any of my friends. i am not ignoring any of my friends. yes, people change, but i have not. im around all the time, im here always, my lameness is still there for you guys to pick on. but, face the fact, that i have found a new lease of life, a driving motive in life that i have turned myself into. these things which i have never felt in my entire life before. forgive me, but you as friends should understand this the most. i have never meant harm or sadness. is it soo hard to let go.? im not even asking you to let go. dont tell im the only one acting like this ever in you entire lives. but sometimes you show me this negative signs that you really hate me with this new lease of life. with your sarcastic remarks. like ive really changed dramatically, like ive really left you hanging all alone by the street. i dont know. well maybe i think thats just life. you face it, and move on. but do trust me, i am not leaving any of it just like that. yes i do miss my friends. well i guess its just a test of friendship, friends.

2009-08-04T22:30:00.003+08:00

haiz what did i do wrong now.

another day to end like this. i feel like shit.

4:02AM

2009-07-31T04:02:00.002+08:00

Did this for studio, still very amateurish i might sayy. very the last minute work liao. anyways, if you guys dont know what it is. its called the presentation boards. p.boards in short. the few boards that shows and tells everything about the product. the project was to design something from a movie, and thus i chose on I, Robot.! that explains Will Smith. thats all. gonna put up more of my works online soon.!

i wont sleep tonight. ill keep you safe. Ill keep you safe

Death Blooms

2009-07-29T11:22:00.002+08:00

did this in the midst of a busy school schedule. found an interesting way to render my drawings without actually disturbing my drawn outlined lines. love this. im doin this for the mass.

drop me an email at abekaufikirkan@hotmail.com for any freelance designs you want me to do aites. i do any design, on anything.

2009-07-22T00:41:00.001+08:00

in case you didnt notice, i get jealous very fast.

2009-07-16T02:29:00.002+08:00

last night the stars arent as big and bright as before.

but last night was the night i fell in love with you thousand times more.

i dont know how long this will last well.

and only time will tell if violins will swell.

is this love for real

let me in your arms to feel

the beating of your heart baby

happy

2009-07-06T22:41:00.000+08:00

I dig my toes into the sand
The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds
Strewn across a blue blanket
I lean against the wind
Pretend that I am weightless
And in this moment I am happy, happy

I wish you were here

I lay my head onto the sand
The sky resembles a back lit canopy
With holes punched in it
I'm counting UFOs
I signal them with my lighter
And in this moment I am happy, happy

I wish you were here

The world's a rollercoaster
And I am not strapped in
Maybe I should hold with care
But my hands are busy in the air

and here we go..

2009-07-05T23:55:00.003+08:00

ever had a fucking freeloader living off your own back.? miserable. and when you dont have the heart to tell that someone off when he/she is your own flesh and blood. heh, fuck im tired of people who keeps bringing me down all the time.

schools starting.!

and here we go.

2009-07-02T22:57:00.001+08:00

chey abang firefighter kiter, congrats nur izzat kusno.

im with you all the way.

2009-06-25T14:27:00.004+08:00

Catched Transformers 2. last night.! with a bunch of what 'izzat would say awesome hommies. there was me, sha.!, 'izzat.!, wan.!, and sham.!. great bunch. alright. it was the last show on cineleisure, 12.05 am. yahoo. we got the ticket at 9pm and had to wait for fuck three hours. and the seats we got are like 3 rows from the screen. nevertheless, the seats was awesome, the popcorn was good, the company was great, the movie best. overnight at the 24hour starbucks coffee at city hall. heh, the initial plan was to do schoolwork after the movie, but we were so hyped up after the movie, it quickly turned into a laughing for everyone of us. heh.

2009-06-17T23:33:00.003+08:00

kay, people this is gonna get boring. heh, apparently i have no complaints about my life and i love my life to the fullest. to every single bits ands pieces of it.

aaaaah, sha made something for me. so sweet of her.

babi you.

2009-06-11T23:41:00.003+08:00

ahhhhh, finally i have pass my traffic police test with 10 points. omg i feel so good.

theres mistakes that i have done in life thats unforgiveable. i understand. and i am filled with regret and guilt. and i hope youll forgive me. for i have said this from the bottm of my heart.

2009-06-06T15:09:00.009+08:00

Talkin to the songbird yesterday
Flew me to a place not far away
She's a little pilot in my mind
Singin songs of love to pass the time
Gonna write a song so she can see
Give her all the love she gives to me
Talk of better days that have yet to come
Never felt this love from anyone

She's not anyone
She's not anyone
She's not anyone

A man can never dream these kind of things
Especially when she came and spread her wings
Whisper in my ear the things I'd like
Then she flew away into the night
Gonna write a song so she can see
Give her all the love she gives to me
Talk of better days that have yet to come
Never felt this love from anyone

She's not anyone
She's not anyone
She's not anyone

2009-06-02T19:25:00.002+08:00

abstracted from syahira's blog.

Yes, you can say, its part and parcel of being a design student.
And you have to learn to take all those blows that come to you, but I couldn’t take it.
The stress and what not.
And how people under estimate how packed/busy we are with projects after projects.
Sure, we have no exams to study for, but could you do the work that we do daily?
Can you sit down and draw concepts after concepts?
Squeeze your brain out just cause you need ideas to do sth?
Can you push yourself through sleepless nights just cause mid-crit or submition is the next day? Are you able to fork out money without any questions?
Are you able to to think quick on your feet and defend your designs?
Sure we have more holidays then you, but we go through 18 weeks of sleepless nights.
Non-existent weekends.
And spend money on printing random pieces of “inspirations”.
You think you have what it takes to be a design student?
Think thrice before committing yourself.

abstracted from shar's blogg:

Stop thinking that design students do not get stress, please. Don't you dare say "You all no exams what, why so stress." Screw you. It's because we don't have exams, why we have so much overwhelming work. Projects are up to our necks, until we get confused over which is which.We spend every late night working on them, sometimes even to the point where we cry in frustration. Believe it.

So for the last time, don't think that you have more work than us just because we don't have exams. Don't give the face when we can't go out because we choose to stay home and work on our projects. Don't complain, because you don't know.

Need i say more.? we're not that lepak as you think we are. but thats the thing. the most top jc student would have panic their heads off by now being in our shoes. but of course being the designers we are. we still have time to have fun. and yes fun is the keyword. that separates 'us' from 'them'.

2009-05-30T16:09:00.001+08:00

taking a step back means everything to me

2009-05-30T06:54:00.002+08:00

work was tiring today. my body is aching all over. my feet hurt. found a charcoal burnt through my shoe and became rock still under my feet. my head was giddy. my nose kept bleeding for no apparent reason at all. and im having blood for plhegm. disturbed izzat just to cheer myself up. saddening he couldnt stay for closing. i kept to myself for the next few hours of work. at least the ciggarettes were there. even at home right now. wasnt the best of nights i had working at the cafe. as usual. and all i know, my friday night is over. its always over. to come and think of it. it never get started in the first place. now im back home. back home in the morning on a saturday. 7 am. i dont think ill be asleep for the next few hours. and this saddens me. everything seems to sadden me right now. i wish i could just run away. run in circles on an open field and fly kite. and yes, the weather is killing me. kill kill kill. hmm. and guess what, my nose starts to bleed again.

2009-05-27T00:45:00.003+08:00

hmm ive bet you guys have guessed it. been really busy with school this week. plainly the sole reason for not updating that much. and i wouldnt be talking that much either in this post. feeling really sleepy. didnt slept last night. just felt like updating. for those might be wondering what am i doing not updating my blogg that much, well yeah ive explained it.thank you for understanding. ill be back with more awesome posts. heh. NIGHTS.!

Hands, like secrets, are the hardest thing to keep from you

Lines and phrases, like knives, your words can cut me through

Dismantle me down

You dismantle me

FRIENDS

2009-05-18T21:21:00.001+08:00

okay here goes. alot has been going on this last few days. seen alot of peoples true colours i might say. the kind of cover they chose to go to when they're in need of protection. the kind of wrong cover they hide under hoping the cover would fight their battles for them. the kind of cover who would do almost anything for you, even you are at wrong. even if you are being childish. even if you are not being reasonable at all. i saw desperation in people i never least expected. i saw desperate actions to be heard and pity on. desperation to find this shelters. out of impulse, finding 'protective' shelters. whereas in the process hurting someone youre close with. a burning desperation to blame someone for his or her wrong doings. i saw my trust being toss around where does my loyalty lie.? why did i keep your trust in me.? me being put under the spotlight for doing nothing. the trust that you have given me to keep. i saw us being your direct middlemen your 'protective' covers and the problem. i saw your desperation for a listening ear. but arent WE listening.? instead your word of mouth is quite quick indeed. and the manipulation you put in your words, sympathetically pathetic. of course people will fight your battle. youre the most nicest thing they ever bumped into. ouh ya. why not use that at to your own advantage. clever. i feel sad for people whom plays around with my trust. trust and choice isnt things you take for granted in life. i've learned that well. and yes, through your bullshit. ive found out im still learning. today i saw a desperate friend. a desperate friend whos pretty new in this world called 'Life'. choose your friends carefully, not all of them are your real 'protective' shelter.

BALI

2009-05-13T23:42:00.004+08:00

i miss this girl right here.

Bali, can you like return her back already.?

im going crazy like giler babi naek kuda panjat pokok nmpk gajah seyh.

2009-05-11T12:31:00.002+08:00

I never thought I'd be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
Then you came in, and knocked me on my face
Feels like in I'm a race
But I already won first place

I never thought I'd fall for you as hard as I did
You got me thinkin' bout our life our house and kids, yeah
Every mornin' I look at you and smile'
Cause girl you came around and you knocked me down
Knocked me down

Sometimes love comes around
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
Sometimes love comes around
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down

I never thought I'd, hear myself say, ooh, ya'll gon' head
I think I'm gonna kick it wit my girl today, kick it wit my girl today
I used to be commander and chief
Of my pimp ship flyin' high, flyin' high
Til I met this pretty little missile that shot me out the sky
Oh shot me out of the sky

Hey, now I'm crashing, don't know how it happened
But I know it feels so damn good
Said if I could back, and make it happen faster
Don't you know I would baby if I could
Miss Independent, ohh, to the fullest, the load never too much
She helpin' me pull it
She shot the bullet that ended that life
I swear to you the pimp in me just died tonight

Girl sometimes love
Sometimes love comes around
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
Sometimes love comes around
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down

Say you gotta put the good with the bad, happy and the sad
So will u bring a better future than I had in the past
Oh Cause, I don't wanna make the same mistakes I did
I don't wanna fall back on my face again
Whoa, whoa, I'll admit it, I was scared to answer love's call
Whoa, whoa, and if it hits better make it worth the fall

Won't see it coming when it happens, hey
But when it happens you're gonna feel it, let me tell you now
You see when love knocks you down
Won't see it coming when it happens
But when it happens you're gonna feel it, let me tell you now
You see when love knocks you down
Yeah

2009-05-11T00:15:00.000+08:00

Flutterphuck had its first ever delivery done yest at tampiness at 12.! and yes i was so excited to meet the guy. yeah i was tired alright from work the day before that causes me to sleep at 4am. and met upp with shalalala, to do schoolstuff at orchard. wheelocks starbucks.! just got back home and 11 just now. and here i am. deprived of sleep. and im still on the phone. BYE.!

2009-05-06T20:05:00.002+08:00

woooot.! schools been awesome i guess. alot has been going on my mind right now. the plainly reason why i hate sitting at home.

sha la la la.

sha la la in the morning.

2009-04-30T23:27:00.004+08:00

im pissed off. i failed my tp test again. im pissed at myself. im pissed at the world. im pissed at home. im pissed with the wolverine show. im pissed at the food i ate. im pissed at people whom im not even supposed to be pissed at. im pissed at peoples actions. argh. im just pissed with myself. why oh why cant i pass my fucking tp test.

motherfucker.

2009-04-26T04:40:00.002+08:00

HEY THERE.!

so heres the thing, the first week of school is awesome, business doing awesome, work doing awesome, I'm doing awesome.! heh. im pretty much optimistic about my life right now. all has change, about me i guess. striving for the bestt. the modules im having in school this semester, for the first time ever, actually make sense.

haha okayy, ended my week with work just now. just got back home after chilling at the cafe with izzat kusno.! boy firefighter now. the thought of going ns frightens me. ALOT. heh okayy im actually quite shagged. but my mind is still working. thinking of alot of stuffs. i hope its for the better. goodnight people and go flutterphuck.!

PIKCHAS

2009-04-19T22:25:00.000+08:00

2009-04-19T07:08:00.002+08:00

YAY! TOMORROW SCHOOL!

bad night

2009-04-18T06:51:00.002+08:00

I FEEL SOO NAKED WITHOUT A HP. fucker. heh. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. okayzxzxz, im really really tired. work was really tiring just now. been thinking ALOT just now. heh and i mean ALOT. my cousin just got back from the clinic cause he had an accident earlier. the whole left side of his body if full of bandages now. wow. and the accident he told me wasnt really that bad but nevertheless the damages he had to take. i feel you my brother. heh.

okayy. mum's having her last 2 weeks of work. yes, shes quiting the job. she's way too tired i guess, and old. my dad's having more off days than ever for the last few weeks. i really think he's gonna be a retired man soon. and yes, no joke, my house is turning into a hotel for my siblings and me. mum and dad is not even complaining.! im paying my own bills, the house bills(of course shared throughout my siblings), im paying for my own food and drinks. mums not cooking alot this days. money for the flutterphuck designs. school. a must to buck up on my pathetic gpa. working is a must to me now. im getting my license, if i am able to pass. the money for the bike. and the maintenance too. its all basically,im living my life with my own sweat and blood ive poured into the cafe which pays me exceptionally well, i guess.

well, what can i say, this is life i guess. how am i gonna balance this, i dont know. i live my life on a day by day basis. but i do have my plans. my dreams. im being all emotionall right now. i guess im not that happy at all. im sorry ive had a bad night, and i just need to pour things out.

i cant wait for school. i cant wait to see shariza, teera, izzat, farhan, syahira, the whole id01, the ogls, and the whole school of design.

2009-04-17T14:50:00.002+08:00

yay. three more days to school.! i really really cant wait for it. a huge sigh of relief from an intense working schedule for two FUCKING months. didnt save that much either. i just dont know where my money went. all i know is that i had the same amount of money since day one. haha. okayy i need a financial advisor. now school's starting, its gonna be even harder to save, i guess. and and guess what, my handphone is officially broken its not turning on. the screen is all blank all the time. and the touchscreen thingy is broken. fuckernaden. and i think ill lose everybody's no. at the same time. fucker. ahhh. haha im actually quite pissed right now, sorry for my language. i have to go to work at 5 when i actually start at 7 for some dumb meeting which i dont think involves me at all. haha haiz. i just want school to start thats all. end of story. bye bye.

shalalalalalalalalalala

2009-04-16T15:49:00.001+08:00

Do you hear me,
Talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you
I promise you,
I will

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

2009-04-11T07:23:00.000+08:00

the past should stay dead

cause its only you and me now.

2009-04-09T07:42:00.002+08:00

HAHA. i love this song. to all OGLS and FRESHIES in NYP.

SEE YOU IN SCHOOL.!

2009-04-08T15:37:00.005+08:00

FRESHMEN ORIENTATION 2009 SCHOOL OF DESIGN WAS THE BOMB. well at least for us the OGLS(orientation group leaders. the preparation and all. sneaking from security guards just to stay in school overnight. the games. the meeting of the freshmen. the rooftop. sleeping in a overly airconed room. staying over at admiralty with sha and teera under some blocks till late in the morning. haiz i m just plainly sorely missing that day even thought it was so short. the ogls from different courses and classes were really really fun. we worked really well together. hahah. kayy im actually speechless about the whole thing. all i want to do is to relive it again and again.

having sleepless nigths with your friends.
especially with the ones you love. where time could actually sit still for the moment were together. and you especially dont what time to past.

sometimes, i just feel that i want to spend all my life with you. okay not sometimes.

always, forever and ever. really really.

Flutterphuck

2009-04-02T13:12:00.001+08:00

HEY PEOPLE.! check us out on FLUTTERPHUCK DESIGNS for designed tshirts. do support us okayy.! we have spent muchmuch time on this. we as in family and bros. orders could be done on the net. details could be found in the net. or you guys find it hard just find me okayy.! hehe. WOO.!

heee im so hyper todayy. bye now.!

this drawings on my wrist that i dont wish to erase

2009-03-31T00:54:00.002+08:00

do you see anything.?

how bout now.?

ITS TITI.!!

hehehehehehehehehehe.
caught red handed on camera just to prove mum that you're lazying around AT HOME.!

you big old machikenik.

2009-03-29T16:56:00.003+08:00

Yay new blogskin.!

well, im quite very happy and hyper today because of a certain someone.

your presence is just breathtaking.

and for that i would like to thank you.

2009-03-24T18:34:00.003+08:00

Johnny Craig is fucking god

Tailored sheets, to fix this dirty bed,

For once this dirt won't come all off

I can't be pushed aside.

Wind is blowing thru closed doors

With shadows dancing in the hall

Now hit the floor, crawl to the side,

We've all made better moves despite the slowing of our feet

For once

Lets leave the dreaming to someone else,

Our time has slipped away,

We're sinking faster, faster no more play

Get ready for the catch,

I'm at the next step, waiting for our year

And all at once it leaves you breathless,

With next to nothing, but open hands.

Reach out, hold on tight,

I know it hurts but keep trying,

And with your luck,

This won't be over quick

Out of the blue it strikes you

What's left to catch but the fear of letting go?

And bite down,

The stress get harder now,

The mood is let down,

Let it play for the last time,

Take this last second to know who's walking out.

For once don't be so weak,

Back up the feelings that you claim now,

Fall deeper into a world, that you can't explain.

For once don't be so weak,

I see the mistake that is you,

Don't try another line, I know the truth

And let hate save you when nothing else will,

Oh, well let it save you when nothing else will.

Let it save you.

The mood is let down,

Let it play for the last time,

Take this last second to know who's walking out

We know who does it best,

Wind is blowing thru closed doors

With shadows dancing in the hall

Now hit the floor, crawl to the side,

We've all made better moves despite the slowing of our feet

Let hate save you when nothing else will.

I know the truth, it won't save you.

2009-03-22T17:23:00.002+08:00

im feeling much much down right now.
and i dont feel like doing anything
else except being with you.
if you just know how i feel.

who watches the watchmen?

2009-03-18T22:28:00.001+08:00

well, i've watched watchmen 2 times and i've rated it my no. 1 movie in my life. followed by dark knight and v for vendetta of course. what triggers me into watching this movie is the entirely opposite idea of superheroes living the good life. how superheroes gets bored at saving the world whos not even appreciative towards these masked heroes. well you get the idea. i just love the concept of irony. erm you know what i mean. like buying a coffee maker that doesnt make coffee for instance. this type of things excites me. haha. seeing the underside of everything out there. maybe its just me.

maybe its just me
and i just wanna dance all night

2009-03-14T16:39:00.000+08:00

you know, im feeling like a much ever shithole in my life right now, where everyone takes a piss and shits on me. haha. my holidays are taken by that dumb part time job of mine which i still do not know why am i still there. haiyo. and my off days are already plans that ive plann to do. so by right, theres no off days. off day is officially when you have off from work and your social life. where you sit at home and just rest. i want my rest. i want my rest. i want my rest. haha life sucks. i dont know, im just mentally disturbed right now. with recent happenings in my life that hasnt been going my way. it just makes me think alot. and i mean alot. i suck at this game called life you know. but im not sure why am i still playing it.

And I was blessed and I've forgotten how to love

2009-03-11T05:55:00.003+08:00

when 'You' fill the 'Nothing'.

It means Everything.

2009-03-10T15:56:00.001+08:00

ey hello hello people. been busy as hell this last few days. been dripping sweat at the cafe, getting back home late always. been sleeping to the middle of the day. plans to meet to. im rarely at home. dad says im treating home as a hotel, where i just come back home to have a sleep, and ill book out from it the next day. nad book in it when i am in need of sleep. watched watchmen yest. and the movie was great. not awesomely great but just great. just love the way they mke the move. picture perfect in every scene.a thousand meanings in every line. and off the hook fight scenes. but still i think v for vendetta was better. anyways, been having a lot of friends with relationship problems nowadays. with same common thing in hand. a psychotic ex date/girlfriend/boyfriend. and now theyre damn pissed off at them for being damn iritating in their lives. haha yeah i understand how you guys feel. but, there must be a spark that started the fire. well of course i have no clue on what is it. i think just because. i dont play around with love. i dont play around with other peoples heart just because youre dating them or even a boy/girlfriend to them. well at least not untill you cross the line between loveydovey and psychotic love. but maybe some are psychotic just for the sake of being psychotic, theyre lonely when you left them just after a date. well of course their morale are down and desperation comes in alot. people can fight off this feelings naturally. but some just cant. theyre living on the words/moves you said/make to them on even the very first date. at least this is what i think. i dont know about you guys. i just got lazy to type. ill talk more when i got the mood uh. take care everyone.

Remind me that we'll always have each other
when everything else is gone.
I never thought I could want
Someone so much
You do something to me that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line if I said
"I miss you"?

2009-02-26T17:34:00.001+08:00

Ke mana saja
Kau berlari bersembunyi
Ku tahu cintamu
Padaku teguh
Takku peduli cara
Dan tingkah lakumu
Kerna ku takkan pergi
Jauh dari sisimu
Dengarlah kasih

Kan kuserahkan segala kepadamu
Kan kuserahkan segala kepadamu

Kan kubina sebuah singgahsana
Untukmu berlindung
Dari hujan basah
Pabila malam
Ku termimpikan wajahmu
Takkan jiwa ragaku
Berakhir nikmatnya
Dengarlah kasih

Kan kuserahkan segala kepadamu
Kan kuserahkan segala kepadamu

hahah jiwang ska lah pulak. but.

these are the exact words that i really wish to say to you.

2009-02-23T00:45:00.001+08:00

Elfie's first b'day. heh

this is not a gayshit post

2009-02-21T03:31:00.002+08:00

ive just realised that this is my 105th post already. wow.

okayy. i just want to simply wish happy birthday to 'Izzat. thanks for everything bro. yes and i mean everything. i know, i may not seem to listen much to your comments or advice, but actually i do. i really do. down to every single fullstop you put in it. i deeply appreciate everything that youve done in only a year or so. i really do hope our friendship will last to whatever time thats left. i hope, we might still be smoking shisha at the cafe when we're grandpas and still be laughing about the things we've done now. siply said, great to have known you bro. thanks. may all your wishes be true.

2009-02-19T21:57:00.003+08:00

I sold my soul for the second time
'Cause the man He don't pay me
I begged my landlord for some more time
He said "Son, the bills are waiting"
My best friend called me the other night
He said "Man - are you crazy"
My girlfriend told me to get a life
She said "Boy - you're lazy"

But I don't mind
As long as there's a bed beneath the stars that shine
I'll be fine, if you give me a minute, a man's got a limit
I can't get a life if my heart's not in it
Hey Hey

I lost my faith in the summer time
'Cause it don't stop raining
The sky all day is as black as night
But I'm not complaining
I begged my doctor for one more line
He said "Son - words fail me"
It ain't no place to be killing time
I guess, I'm just lazy

BUT I don't mind
As long as there's a bed beneath the stars that shineI
'll be fine, if you give me a minute, a man's got a limit
I can't get a life if my heart's not in
Hey Hey

this song is all about what happened to me in some ways or another recently heh. and I LOVE IT.

now im all about

I don't mind

As long as there's a bed beneath the stars that shine

COOLCATS

2009-02-16T17:11:00.004+08:00

The very reason why I come to school for.

And the very reason why I live my life.

I would find a way without you

2009-02-15T19:03:00.002+08:00

Taking on seven years
The holy ghost had left alone
Test my arms, kick like crazy
I've been trying way too long
Only push the way off to fight you
Now i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm not sure
Getting off my chest
The story ends

I would find a way without you

That mistake was gold
I know that without you
Is something that i could never do
That was why staple the eyes and
Seven dates for me to sell machines
And tear on

Seven years you assured me
That i'd be fine if i complied
Only push the way off to fight you
Now i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm not sure
Getting off my chest
The story ends....without you

I would find a way without you

That mistake was gold
I know that without you
Is something that i could never do
That was why staple the eyes and
Seven dates for me to sell machines
And tear on

Don't treat me, i'm to blame
Don't treat me like i ever accused you
Don't treat me, i'm to blame
Don't treat me like i ever accused you
Don't treat me, i'm to blame
Don't treat me like i ever accused you

2009-02-14T03:57:00.003+08:00

Firstly, noone else could ever make me feel as good as how you can actually make me feel.

Secondly, with you turning down, I might be giving up on love. Seriously.

Thirdly, just a random feeling i had this few weeks. I just hate the sight of couples everywhere.

fourth,

Happy Valentines Day

2009-02-11T00:48:00.002+08:00

i bite titi in the legs and he tried to scratch my face. but you know, he got short legs. huahahahahaha. i threw him on the sofa and he tried to chase my leg. but you know, he stopped halfway for oxygen. hahahaha. he entered my room secretly, i saw him went out under my nose with his face looking at me. those kind of face that says 'HAHA i've peed in your fucking room.! huahahahaha. revenge is sweet.' HAHA. ten years already that cat. he's one of those few things that will make me smile whenever i think about. i love him. ati sorang doi ati ati noi busok dey. heh. cheers titi. hahah.

sometimes i wonder where did i go wrong

2009-02-09T01:59:00.003+08:00

my life is a downfall.

and all i see in life is me falling deeper in this deep dark hole that has no ending. keeping me awake the whole time while i fall deeper and deeper. funny enough, i see myself falling but i cant do anything about it.

i dont know.

"Maybe it's just me.

it is me.

me.

self-loathing, old companion.

just recently we've met.

depression.

just when I thought I got over you.

insomnia.

just when the nights could'nt go any longer."

got this from a friend.

2009-02-08T17:20:00.000+08:00

What happened to us all
Have we slept through it
Taking hits on the surface
Its too hard to swallow it
Their judgments are concentrated
On everything they know.

Was it long enough or did we wake you up from your sleeping?

I've overheard it once
This has gone on before
It's still one and the same
We you're accounted for
We seem so far away from
These things we used to know
We seem so far away from everything we are.

Everyone that moves around me
They're saying nothing
That makes a final pack
Say we're something that no one wanted to hear
They know that everything is wrong

Was it long enough or did we wake you up from your sleeping?

I've overheard it once
This has gone on before
It's still one and the same
When you're accounted for
We seem so far away from
These things we used to know
We seem so far away from everything we are.

All we are is golden
This won't mean a thing
All we are is golden
This won't mean a thing

2009-01-25T15:56:00.001+08:00

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Disappointment You are a fun-loving, energetic, and cheerful person. You love adrenaline rushes, and going out at night. You constantly have to be having a great time to feel completely happy. Your biggest fear is not having anything to do, or having a huge disappointment/let down in your life. You hate being sad, and if something in your life suddenly went wrong it would be extremely hard for you to deal with. Just remember that everyone has to deal with hard times. Stay strong, and pretty soon your fun, party life will get right back the way it used to be.
Being Alone
Commitment
Looked down on
Losing Someone
Where Your life is Going
Death
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

2009-01-24T03:44:00.002+08:00

sometimes, i just feel that i need a breather and run away from the world and never come back. bliss.

sometimes, i just feel like flying kites on a bright sunny day in an open field. bliss.

sometimes, i just feel like laying my head onto soft grass and stare blankly into the dark night. bliss.

sometimes, i just wanna be a cat. roam freely. sleep on cars. with noone telling what to do. bliss.

sometimes, i just feel like none of this could ever happen in this world.bliss.

2009-01-19T01:19:00.000+08:00

now theres a reason for me to stay at home.

FIFA 09 on my XBOX360.! WOOHOO

2009-01-17T14:46:00.002+08:00

Happiness

-An agreeable feeling or condition of the soul arising from good fortune or propitious happening of any kind; the possession of those circumstances or that state of being which is attended enjoyment; the state of being happy; contentment; joyful satisfaction; felicity; blessedness.

Trust

-to rely upon or place confidence in someone or something. A relationship of reliance. belief or confidence in the power, reality, truth, goodness etc of a person or thing

Friendship

- The state of being friends; friendly relation, or attachment, to a person, or between persons; affection arising from mutual esteem and good will; friendliness; amity; good will.

2009-01-07T15:55:00.004+08:00

i miss you terribly,
the distance cant control me,
i promise we will pull through,
im constantly thinking of you.
ouh hold your head up girl. and wear a smile for me.
it still seems faraway. but someday you will see.
you know im worth waiting for.
we've been through so much more.
after all.
so wipe away those tears.
and we can conquer our fears.
and never fall.

but they say good things dont last forever, or maybe i... or maybe im scared of love

zooey deschanel

2009-01-05T21:54:00.005+08:00

OMG ZOOEY.

haha. i never thought that i would say this here. how i'd ever wish for someone real in my life, to make me smile with even her slightest movement, or her softest whisper to my ears right now. i'll be more than happy. more than happy. but apparently there isnt right now. ill just have to make do with zooey being on my screen all the time then. heh.

copeland - dont slow me down

2009-01-01T15:54:00.000+08:00

With a heart so pure
You could fall so quickly
But don't you dare slow down for me
Were it not for hearts like mine
Calloused thickly
You could fall so easily
Don't you dare slow down for me

You could take everything I have
Just don't leave my side now, don't leave my side
You could take everything I have
Just don't leave my side now, don't leave my side

Cause your words hit like a train and I can't ignore it
This moment could be our last
You fall in love and I'm running after
You move way too fast

But don't slow down
And don't let go
Hold me close now, lest I fall
They say I don't know how to love the right way
But you make me feel, you make me feel like I do

You could take everything I have
Just don't leave my side now, don't leave my side
You could take everything I have
Just don't leave my side now, don't leave my side

You could take everything I have
Just don't leave my side now, don't leave my side

haiz. hello 2009. goodbye 2008.

flutterphuckdesigns

2008-12-29T21:01:00.001+08:00

ya know. designing, sketching at your own free will is much much better than doing some stupid product with lecturers caging your creativity and having damn datelines and ideas rejected over and over again. how can our imaginations run wild with the do and don'ts to follow goddamnit. and you know what. the working life will be the same.! we will still seek approval of ideas from our boss. we will still have datelines to follow. life's demoralizing.

so heres what im gonna do to keep my passion for design stay lit and not die. my bro, a friend of mine, and me are setting up a t-shirt internet based company. kay basically we're selling our designed t-shirts. hopefully, kay not hopefully, a must that we release our stuffs by next year feb. hopefully earlier. do keep in touch okayy.

life's so empty, so... empty

2008-12-27T14:55:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling less than awesome this year.
I've always been feeling this way, actually.
and i've lost it.

2008-12-23T20:19:00.002+08:00

i feel weak.

i feel useless.

i feel helpless.

i dont feel happy.

i feel tired.

i dont feel excited.

i feel uneasy.

i feel sad.

i feel like throwing up.

i feel angry.

i feel dumb.

i feel negative.

i feel unmotivated.

i feel alone.

i feel left out.

i feel like shit.

i feel slow.

i feel lonely.

i feel enclosed.

i feel different.

i feel lethargic.

i feel down.

i feel demoralized.

i feel like crying.

i dont want my life back. its harsh.

2008-12-16T02:02:00.005+08:00

so sir, what are you doing right now.?

I'm getting my life back.

2008-12-13T15:12:00.002+08:00

wooohooo, my indonesian volkswagen. hardwork i tell you. not that nice either. but you know what, now im at least properly trained in illustrator. after holidays.! photoshop time.! okayy i cant wait to learn rhino. autocad is just too mathematical engineering shit man. darn asshole. and you know what, i dont have any plans for my holidays. thats jsut darn sad lahh. people look forward to enjoy their holidays. while im working the first week of holidays. but i aint one to whine and cry about it. come to think about it, i need the money anyways. for my own personal bike i guess. huahahhaha. hopefully my tp would on 5th feb. im having prac 7 this monday. the final and last pratical lesson that i have to clear. hopefully everything will go smoothly.
hopefully my life will go smoothly.
bye now.

2008-12-08T23:11:00.002+08:00

Far away
The ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

Starlight
I will be chasing your starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it anymore

And hold you here in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You here in my arms

My life
You electrify my life
Lets conspire to re-ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive

But I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Hold you here in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You here in my arms

Far away
The ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelationsYeah
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You here in my arms
I just wanted to hold

2008-12-06T23:59:00.000+08:00

i......need......to......recover...my......hours...of........sleep.....back.....

2008-12-06T13:51:00.001+08:00

I FUCKING HELL HATE COCKROACHES AND LIZARDS.

2008-11-27T20:39:00.000+08:00

So WEDNESDAY WAS A BLAST.rented a hyundai assence.(well i think its called that) on tuesday night. AND WE WERE OUT ON A TOUR WITH IZZAT BEING THE CHAUFFEUR.!! EY i mean driver. well, there was me, izzat the driver, izzat the walking gps, farhan and nadirah, his gf. heh. awesome. first we went downtown for a bowl of a time. then to arab street to grab dinner.! then sent farhans gf home, then we headed off for our NIGHT TOUR AROUND SINGAPORE.!!! weeeee.

Abg driver kiter untok hari itu.!!

Farhan and Nadirah.!
The walking gps. heh. AND ME.!!!

2008-11-25T22:52:00.003+08:00

YOU.
Stop living in the past please.

Look at what you got right infront of you.
me.

2008-11-20T19:51:00.000+08:00

Well here are some pictures from autocad's lesson few weeks ago. awesome i tell you.

well, basically this is how we felt during that gruesome class.!Isolated. Angst.

Fishy.

and so after hours of doing autocad, we finally got freedom.! we felt ecstatic.! and to show our gratefulness to god that the lesson had finish.! we camwhored in front of the lift, while waiting for it to come up. hee.

well here goes.

And for the finale.

HAHAHAHA.!!!

(okayy im not sure of whats his response to this.hehe)

2008-11-19T22:23:00.000+08:00

kayy for lunch i ate grilled chicken foldover meal with farhan and gang. got back home early for circuit revision. ate nasi ayam oanyet before going out. bought snickers otw there. ended revision at 8. bought pocky at yck cheers. got home. ate abg's nasi ayam penyet cause he dont want. after that, asked mum to cook me maggie tomyam with egg. ate sliced apple while watching tv. now im chewing down ice in front of my com, and im still hungry. im still hungrehhhhh. grrrr.

weekends gonna be hectic with work and school. omgomg.

well here i come.

2008-11-17T19:11:00.002+08:00

i feel small and vulnerable. nothing i do these days seems right.

2008-11-11T23:45:00.000+08:00

For some reason that i dont know about. i have soo much thoughts in my head now. plainly much the reason why i dont blog that much nowadays. i dont talk wanna talk about it, i hate it. i'm hungry. i'll get back into blogging when i have something new in my life okay. with all these thoughts, i just feel like stuffing myself with loads and loads of food right now. well, which i literally did when i got home just now.

bye

2008-11-02T22:37:00.002+08:00

Two sides twist and then collide
You're calling off the guards, I'm coming through (Am I coming through..)
Adulteress conditioned to a spin cycled submission
"You know sometimes it just feels better to give in"

And it's all too familiar and it happens all the time.
All the cards begin to stack up,
Twisting heartache into fine little pieces that avoid an awful crime
But it's you I can't deny.

Dull heat rises from the sheets,
I'm both a patient boy... well and a jealous man
Am I coming...
But double standardarized suspicion is remedied,
Oh My Blue Heaven
"Sometimes it just feels better to give in..."

And it's all too familiar and it happens all the time.
All the cards begin to stack up,
Twisting heartache into fine little pieces that avoid an awful crime
But it's you I can't deny.

We swing and we sway
as this tiny voice in my head starts to sing,
"You're safe, child, you are safe"
You're safe, child, you are safe.

We swing and we sway
as this tiny voice in my head starts to sing,
"You're safe, child, you are safe"
You're safe, child, you are..

Safe.. Safe.. Safe.. You are safe..
We swing and we swayas this tiny voice in my head starts to sing
"You're safe, child, you are safe"
Am I.. coming through

Is this all too familiar? Does it happen all the time?
I'm just asking you to hear me;
Could you please just once just hear me?
More than anything, you wanted to be right
Still it's you, you, it's you I can't deny..
You I can't deny
It's you I can't deny.

2008-10-28T00:58:00.002+08:00

how can i love somebody.

when i even find it hard to love myself.

2008-10-26T20:43:00.002+08:00

V for Vendetta. Absolutely Awesome. poetry in every line. this is what i called poetry in motion. please watch till the end. my favourite scene in any movie of all time.

"No, what you have are bullets, and the hope that when your guns are empty i'm no longer standing because if i am......you'll all be dead before you've reloaded..."

"Beneath this mask there is more than flesh...beneath this mask there is an idea, Mr Creedy......and ideas are bulletproof.."

ENJOY

azrin next year april da botak.!!! huahahahaha. well all the best bro.

2008-10-18T15:55:00.002+08:00

hey.! got this cooooool thing from hidhir's livejournal, its about my personalities through my handwriting. try it.! dont worry, you dont have to write or any sort like that. just choose from the options that best suits you. CHEERS.!

http://www.handwritingwizard.com/analysis.php

soooo, here mine.

Welcome Muhammad Khuswandy, here is your handwriting analysis.

Muhammad uses judgment to make decisions. He is ruled by his head, not his heart. He is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see him as unemotional. He does have emotions but has no need to express them. He is withdrawn into himself and enjoys being alone.

The circumstances when Muhammad does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets him mad enough to tell him off, he will not be sorry about it later. He puts a mark in his mind when someone angers him. He keeps track of these marks and when he hits that last mark he will let them know they have gone too far. He is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All his conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. He is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, he has poise.

Muhammad will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. He would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, he will show his love by the things he does rather than by the things he says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because he feels his mate should already know. The only exception to this is if he has logically concluded that it is best for his mate to hear him express his love verbally.

Muhammad is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to him, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of his sound judgment. He will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. He will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and he will always ask "Is this best for me?"

(heh im not quite sure about the being alone part. i hate being alone. =D)

People that write very large tend to be very social and friendly. It seems Muhammad has this type of writing. This indicates a need for people and a particular natural ability to socialize and be the life of the party. Now, if Muhammad also has specific fears (like fear of criticism or fear of trust) then he will deny he is the life of the party, because fear has overcome his natural inclination to be social. People with large handwriting tend to be effective at anything that requires interaction with lots of people. he is a people person.

(told ya i hate being alone.)

Muhammad is not facing something going on in his life today. He is deceiving himself about it. Often, Muhammad's opinion of himself is different than those around him. This trait gives Muhammad the ability to deny anything that does not agree with his "truth." This trait is not always something negative. It is only a defense mechanism allowing Muhammad not to face some reality in his life at this time.

(haha, i dont understand much for this one. "Muhammad is not facing something going on in his life today." wow. i guess thats good. hehehehe.)

In reference to Muhammad's mental abilities, he has a very investigating and creating mind. He investigates projects rapidly because he is curious about many things. He gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but he soon must slow down and look at all the angles. He probably gets too many things going at once. When Muhammad slows down, then he becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, he must slow down to do it. He then decides what projects he has time to finish. Thus he finishes at a slower pace than when he started the project.

He has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. His mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. He can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Muhammad can then switch into his low gear. When he is in the slower mode, he can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. He is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Muhammad's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Muhammad that he wasn't a great and beautiful person, and he believed them. Muhammad also has a fear that he might fail if he takes large risks. Therefore he resists setting his goals too high, risking failure. He doesn't have the internal confidence that frees him to take risks and chance failure. Muhammad is capable of accomplishing much more than he is presently achieving. All this relates to his self-esteem. Muhammad's self-concept is artificially low. Muhammad will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because he is afraid that if he makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Muhammad to plan too far into the future. He kind of takes things on a day to day basis. He may tell you his dreams but he is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud he speaks, look at his actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Muhammad is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.

(am i like this.? this might be true uh. but, my innate self-confidence was broken.? wth is that suppose to mean. sounds like i lost my virginity or something. -.-)

Muhammad is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect his ego when he feels hurt. He pokes people harder than he gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

(heh. well at least i try not to be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time time when im being sarcastic.)

Muhammad exaggerates about everything that has a physical nature. Although he may not intend to deceive or mislead, he blows things way out of proportion because that is the way he views them. He will be a good story teller. This exaggeration relates to all areas of his material world. Muhammad allows many people into his life because he is accepting and trusting. He is sometimes called gullible by his friends. That only really means that he trusts too many people. Muhammad has a vivid imagination.

(haha, whats gullible.?!?! whats vivid.?!?!)

wow. i guess i learned a lil bit more about myself than what i thought i would. and sometimes it hurts.

2008-10-15T22:25:00.001+08:00

heyy nyp's raya photos are at DASS blogg. check it out yaw.! anyway. im soo FUCKING lazy to update. arrrghhh. heh. bought a Freshbox bag. hehehehehehe. kay bye.!

2008-10-13T20:27:00.003+08:00

Sad, small, sweet, so delicate
We used to be this dying breed
Well I've got a bad feeling about this
I've got a bad feeling about this

You kept still until the long drive home,
You slept safe and close to the window.
Well, I've got a bad feeling about this
I've got a bad feeling about...

Who's to say you'll have to go ,I could go all night
Well say you'll have to go ,I could go all..
To hell with you and all your friends
To hell with you and all your friends, it's on

Sad, small, sure in porcelain
You're skin and bones, I'm a nervous wreck
Well I've got a bad feeling about this
I've got a bad feeling about this

You kept still until the long drive home
You slept safe and close to the window
Well I've got a bad feeling about this
I've got a bad feeling about...

Who's to say you'll have to go ,I could go all night
Well, say you'll have to go ,I could go all...
To hell with you and all your friends
To hell with you and all your friends, it's on

Well I got a bad feeling about this
I got a bad feeling about...

Anyone will do tonight
Anyone will do tonight
Close your eyes, just settle, settle
Close your eyes, just settle, settle

Well I got a bad feeling about this,
I got a bad feeling about this
I'm coming over but it never was enough
I thought it through and my worst brings out the best in you

I got a bad feeling about this,

FIX YOU

2008-10-09T16:22:00.003+08:00

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I...
Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

one word for Coldplay. AWESOME. they might not have the futuristic sounds and gadgets in their performances like Muse. they might not have the looks like the jonas brothers. they're just plain awesome with their heartfelt performances that makes people weep. with lyrics pierced into hearts like no other. with awesome vocals that makes your hair stand. they're just awesome. just go watch the video aites. you'll understand how heartfelt and epic it is. i dont know about you. but performances like these just makes me feel alive. heh. making me a lil bit sentimental for a moment. heh. will somebody come and fix me already.?!?!

2008-10-04T00:05:00.000+08:00

BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

NORA DANISH. OMFG.

2008-10-02T00:43:00.003+08:00

raye today was awesome. as usuall stuff as the other years. but this year was speciall. dad's walking on a stick. and we're moving around in a suzuki swift. and bro's on his super 4. hahahah. best eyy. tahu takper. k. not much to chat about. i still want to raye. =D

2008-09-28T14:55:00.000+08:00

you've been a part of me so long
just not the part that keeps me strong
you've been a part of me and I know
that I will miss you when you go

so long you've been a part of me
just not the part that we can see
been a part of me and I know so don't you go

to countless mornings to endless nights
you keep me waiting for you to get things right
while in the darkness or in the sun
this time my waiting has only just begun.

plainsunset - johari window

2008-09-26T16:36:00.000+08:00

well, deleted my last post. was attracting wayyyyy too much attention. ouhkayy. back to my oh-so-mundane life called reality. MY RIDING THORY'S TEST IS ON 13 NOVEMBER SIA. motherfucker betol lahhh. well izzat said it was okayy and i should take my time. well. im already at prac 5 and force me to wait for one whole month of not riding for that stupid 6$ test which i will get refund when i attend it. maaachikenik betol lahhhh. okayy. breaking fast at home later. but will be working at 9.! what the fuck sia.! at 9.! tidak ke masok ke akal. 'because we're expecting a crowd at that time.' maachikenik. da hujan baru carik payung issit.? taik da kluar baru carik jamban issit.? well the bright side is, i get to sit home and be with my beloved family longer todayy. and and i get to break fast with them today.! wooohoooo. kayy lah da. bye.

2008-09-19T16:01:00.002+08:00

i've been looking down on myself pretty very much ALOT for the last few days. and i mean ALOT. haiyoooooh.